Good morning my friends,
day 44 isolation. The president says bleach and lysol can maybe cure covid if ingested or injected or whatever. I know it sounds ridiculous and is dangerous. And insane. like taking a poison. And it IS dangerous and ridiculous (and insane). So I am saying to all of my friends- dont do it. Don't take it.
This note is for someone who is sick. Someone who is desperate. Someone who wants a miracle. Who will try anything. When I was dying, I wanted so much to find one thing that would fix everything- that cure that would make well the terrible ness of dying. That one thing that could take me back before the train car blew up.
Magic thinking. Even when I knew it was magic thinking. I wanted it.
There is a difference in hope and magic thinking.
Hope (from google)
1. a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.
magical thinking (from Wiki)
In psychiatry, magical thinking is adisorder of thoughtcontent;here it denotes the false belief that one's thoughts, actions, or words will cause or prevent a specific consequence in some way that defies commonly understood laws of causality.
Drinking bleach defies commonly understood laws of causality. It will kill you. Really. Insane stuff.
So don't do it. Even if you are desperate. Hopeless. I know desperation and it leads to desperate things.
Hang in there. Hope. Reach out. Try to be of service. That is what I learned in that mess. mostly. hang in there. One day at a time was about all I could pull off. There are no magic bullets.
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